So, these past years (even before the pandemic) have never been easy for me. I lost a lot and I never imagined that before. I lost my loved ones. I am done with too much, way too much positivity. I miss myself a lot, so where did she go? And…

When I hear about love languages, I remember every chance The Almighty gives for me to live my life and to learn from it.

When I hear about love languages, I remember my mom waking me up everyday to pray in the early morning and saying, “May The Almighty answer…

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Hi, Embun.

2020 is a tough year, right? Never been easy since day one. Well, actually for you every year is not an easy, looking-forward-to-good-things, happy-go-lucky year anymore since the heartbreak, isn’t it? And oh, you’ve been ghosted too. Yea, I know. Not to mention that you face soooo many…

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There are times when I hear the word “Privilege” coming up, I think about financial privileges directly. I think about someone who was born from a rich family that will have full access to everything that may make their life much easier. And since I don’t come from that kind…

Disclaimer: This story is written in Indonesian

Aku masih ingat pertemuan pertamaku dengan Aresh.

Hari itu hari pertama ospek. Kalau ini film, mungkin kejadiannya begini: Aku dan Aresh telat lalu dihukum bareng, aku ditabrak Aresh lalu kenalan, atau aku secara nggak sengaja duduk di sebelah Aresh lalu berakhir satu kelompok…

Disclaimer: This story will be written in Indonesian.

Ini cuma reuni SMA, Athena. Cuma reuni SMA.

Sejak 2 bulan lalu, aku selalu bilang begitu ke diriku sendiri. Ini cuma reuni SMA. Aku cukup datang, basa-basi sebentar, lalu pulang dengan alasan banyak kerjaan. Cukup.

Tapi nyatanya, sampai hari ini, aku justru…

In the past days, I always thought that a gift is just a gift, a package is just a package. So, when I open the box and I found a book, I just recognise that as a book. And when there are chocolates there, I know that as chocolates. Just…

My self love journey is waaaaayyyy harder than the one I predicted before. I meet failures (over and over again, who’s counting anyway? Hehehe), dissapointments, wow-moments, happiness, laugh and tears, being ghosted, you name it.

It leads me to many questions and wonders, to many deep talks with myself and…

Photo by me. Bandung, Dec 2019.

Little did I know that managing expectations is a very hard thing to do.

I grew up in a supportive environment and got a lot of support from my closest relatives. Everything seems fine until I find out that the world doesn’t work according to your wishes and favors, and…

Everyone move so fast, everything happen so quickly, everyone run. But hey, how many times do you realize that you can actually take a walk, step by step, to discover everything you want to know in this whole world?

And how many times do you actually understand that life is not a competiton at all?

Embun Bening, 7/8/2020.

Embun Bening Diniari Sastrodinomo

She loves and hates things wholeheartedly, has many many many random thoughts, and sometimes speaks her mind out loud.

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